素直な気持ちは帰りたくないよ
Okay, the Disney Land post is in the works. It’ll be up eventually.
Since Disney land I’ve done many things. The day afterwards we went to a soccer game. School started up again.
I was able to be switched into the Science/Math Course! All of my new classmates are so nice. I already have more friends in this class than I ever had in my old one, and it’s only been the second day.
It’s been really hot lately. Around 26 degrees Celcius (around 78 Fahrenheit?). On the first day of being back at school I went to track practice after not going all of spring break. It’s hot enough that I really have trouble being able to run. I may actually end up quitting track, since I’m the slowest on the team anyway (including the junior high students) and most likely wouldn’t be able to actually run in any of the meets. Haven’t decided yet, though.
I also got severely sunburnt in that practice. Like, anywhere that my skin was showing is bright red and hurts really bad. I didn’t expect the sun to be that bad so I hadn’t prepared sunscreen and everyone else just had those really small bottles around the size of hotel shampoo that definately wouldn’t have been enough to cover my arms, the lower half of my legs, my face and my neck. Yeah.
Over all… I want to go home even less than ever. I have an awesome new class. I’m able to help my new host sister study German for when she goes on exchange from this next September. I’m finally actually happy instead of just being excited to be in Japan for the first time in a long while.
And that all gets taken away in 1 month, 1 week and 4 days.
Then I have to go back, deal with a summer break that I should have been spending most or at least half of still in Japan, then go to school in the US again…
I really don’t want to leave. Not when things have just started getting good. Not when I finally found some good friends outside of the exchange students.
I want more time. I want to go on the Science/Math course fieldtrip that’s 9 days after I’ll leave. I want to take the official Kanji test in June. I want to take the JLPT level 1 at the start of July. I want to participate in the sports festival before summer break. I want to spend a summer break in Japan. I want to experience the Kyoai bazaar again and have it be better than the last one. I want to take more of the tests and do my best to get higher scores here, even on the Japanese or the bible. I want to get another chance to watch Kyoai’s Christmas Pageant again since I had a seat where I couldn’t see at all last time. I want to go to Okinawa with my new class next February…
I want at least another year to redo all the things that didn’t work out right this last one. But I can’t. And even just thinking about leaving like this hurts so bad, so I don’t even want to think about when I actually have to leave.
Anyone who happened to read this until the end, thanks for listening to me whine. I just sort of needed to let it out.
