I Tried
I tried to be somewhat positive for the last 2 blog posts, I really did. I can’t keep it up anymore.
I don’t want to go back more than ever.
Things are getting even better at school. I’ve made even more friends.
The guy I like? He’s been walking to school with me from the station (around 5~6 minutes at my/our walking pace) almost every day, and we talk.
And also, there’s a guy in my class now who apparently likes me.
Basically the time they chose for me to go home is maybe the worst possible. All of my friends are busy with studying for their midterms so they can’t hang out except for at school.
I have around 4 days left. 2 left in school.
I still haven’t started packing. Or writing my goodbye speech. But this isn’t just plain procrastination. I’m procrastinating in denial because I don’t want to have to go back.
Random note for those who don’t know or don’t get it yet: I intend on going to college in Japan. Not America. So even if I don’t have enough money by the time I graduate high school, whenever that may be, I intend on working until I have enough money to do so.
May 19, 2009 at 12:46 am
Shelbi, It is a shame that you had to go so far to find yourself. Do well in school when you get home and start looking into scholarship options for American student attending High school in Japan. Dr. Sinha is really good at finding scholarships. I know that he will be happy to help you achieve your goals. Find it in your heart to be grateful to all of those who made this possible and make the most of your life where ever you are.
May 24, 2009 at 5:37 am
Hey Shelbi, you know today i came across with your youtube account and then with this blog, i really liked it, it seems so real almost if im’m living it too. It´s sad that you had to go back, but i´m sure you’ll get a chance to go back to Japan, to me it’s been a dream to go over there for 4 years now, some times i get desperate, but i’ll keep on waiting and trying…
Anyways i really liked your blog, hope you enjoy you’re comeback to usa